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10:32 am - yikes!

My last update was 16weeks ago! hmm.. Thank you for informing me LJ that I suck at updating!

Anyhow, Im prettty bored right now. Just chiling at my desk at work thinking about this house I really want to buy. Wishing someone would call or text me back about going to look at it! Dammit!

Im pretty excited because Tracy is moving back home. Which means lots of friend time. I think we should have a friend night every couple weeks. Everyone gets so busy it is difficult.. but we can manage something im sure.

I really have nothing exciting to post. I am completely in Love with Gary. He is the best thing that ever happened to me and thats all that really matters to me. Im so happy!

Other than that.. nothing else going on.

I need some karaoke time though! DEFINITELY!

07:57 am - "this boat is reaaaaaaal!"

I cannot stop singing that Mutha Fuckin song! lol  

Anyhow... so my birthday is Monday! Thats exciting. I think..... I guess 25 is kinda getting up there. Id rather still be a teenager and in highschool!  Things were way easier and much cheaper. lol This weather blows too by the way.  It refuses to get warm and stay warm.  I hate it! I want to be able to ride my motorcycle more. Im freakin paying out the ass for that thing Id like to be able to use it this summer.

Gary and myself are fantastic!  My lungs however are not! He made me go running with him yesterday. I dont run. I was dying! We ran from our apt. to the fire station. Which is Prolly not even a mile lol I got there and my lungs were on fire!!!!!! lol He jogged back home and came back with the car to pick me up.   How lame am I? pretty lame!

Oh well... ok thats all i got. NOthing exciting!  

Oh yea!  Tracys wedding was awesome! and amazing! and beautiful!  All my friends are getting hitched!

07:43 am - Long Lost Live journal

Im pretty bored here at work right now and remembered that I forgot my regular journal at home. Its been over a year since I posted anything on here so I thought Id go for it!  This weekend Tracy is getting married :O)  How exciting!  Angie is married, Tracy will be, Mel is having  a baby..... my friends are all growed up~! I unfortunately have to wait a while to do anything. Im super strapped for cash and Gary's divorce will not be finale until August now. It seems they keep moving it. His wife is such a cunt too! A BIG ONE! And I dont use that word usually.. but she is pure evil!

So anyway. Im extrememly tired and kinda bored with things right now.  I get my Harley back from the dealer today. Those idiots at Biker Bobs were suppose to fix it but coudlnt replicate what was happeneing when I have it. So when I get it home Im sure it will happen again and then I will keep sending my bike there all summer long.  I know they know whats up. They prolly want to wait till I have no warranty and charge my ass for it. Too bad I wont pay for anything!


I miss my bed right now. I just want to lay down and relax. I had to play mom today. Gary had to go to work early. So I got the kids up and fed and dressed and off to school. Im a professional at that stuff though. I have had so many kid experiences I could do it all blind folded!

Today I think we are dropping the bikes off at Micks and then maybe swimming.. I dunno. I gotta get dinner made. Maybe ill ride back home and then meet gary and the kids at my aunt micks.. i dunno.

mmmmmm coffee.. Gods greatest gift! I need a pick me up badly! I was playing guitar hero yesterday and i was falling asleep while i was playing it. Everytime id beat a song... while it was saving id fall asleep. My hand is pushing down on the strum bar so then it makes a crazy noise. lol It was silly.


ANYHOW!!!!!!!!!!! I guess IM done rambling on.  Im exciting for everything going on lately. Im glad summer is full of things to do. My birthday included!

Have a good one everybody! If there is anyone left on this thing!

08:09 am - I wish ....

It was like 75 outside right now. I would go pretend to puke or have  a break down and go home. lol  I also wish the wave pool was open. Cause Id go there instead.

So hows everyone doing? Good. Glad to hear.   IM surviving. Actually I think I am doing pretty well considering everything I have gone through lately. Grandma passed Last Monday. Which is good. I dont think any of us wanted her to stay on this crappy world in pain. She is much better off in heaven. I wonder how quick you get your wings there. 

Hopefully she was too busy moving in to see the fiasco her stupid sister and 3 kids had the other day. I really think people need to grow up.

Im pertty excited that the tigers are getting better. I bought tix the other day. But that game isnt until june. I want to go to an earlier one. Ill have to set something up. Maybe on my next paycheck Ill get more.

I really really want to get on a harley and go riding. It sucks watching all those bikes go by everyday. Im alsmot paid off on my truck. SOON ENOUGH!

I think I will take come classes in the fall. That way I can defer my loan payments. Not that I want more loans, but I should go to school. I can at least become a scrub tech and probably make 19 to 20 bucks with that cert. Then maybe later go into radiology. Those are pretty quick classes. Im pretty sure I can have all my bills payed off this year. Which makes me severely happy. I have been paying forever it seems. NEVER GET CREDIT CARDS WHEN UR IN HIGHSCHOOL! or just be a little smarter then me about it.

ANyhow, thats all I have. Take care and Ill write later.

T~ 

09:01 am - There's no place like HOME!

Im am so tired and exhausted. I can't even imagine how my mom is doing inside. She is living at grandmas and taking care of her everyday. Just waiting and waiting. My mom is so strong and I feel so sorry for her. I think its hard running over there everyday. At least I get a break and get to come back home at the end of the day. 

Grandma is ok I guess. The doctors try to make us feel better by telling us some of the cancer in her brain has stopped growing. HOwever... the rest of it.... is still going strong. Thats the part they leave out.  

My aunt Cris and her two kids are here from Oregon. They are staying at Grandmas house too. There are so many people there all the time. 

I dont have time for anything. We are all so busy with grandma and worrying day to day what is going to happen. There is no time to think. We got a new puppy and shes a monster right now because no one is ever home to train her. She hangs out with Harley and picks on him. Her bark is sooo loud and ear piercing!

I have Easter this weekend and 3 batisms.(jake, hana and rachel) Its going to be a long long day at church. Then my uncle LOUD MOUTH DRUNK ASS SOB is coming in town today for Easter. Everyone is kinda making peace with grandma.  Its hard to have these gatherings. It gets very emotional for everyone. They know there isnt much time left.

Alright... well thats all i have. I guess I will do some work now.

11:14 am - Stupid Doctors!

I hate the one doc that works here. He is such an asshole. He thinks he is God.... or whatever God is in his country. He is Indian, so of course he has this ALMIGHTY ME about him. I wish God would strike him dead or give him a little bit of hell right now. I dont even care that I said that. He is seriously making me very angry. From now on though I will be dating everytime he makes some sexual comment  and have someone sign and witness it.  If he ever wants to be an asshole again.. Ill help him lose his license :) fucker!


Anyhow.. I have a slight cold and its sooo irritating.  Ok.. well im gonna go eat and hope I dont get bitched at for that.



not a good day :(

09:05 am - I HAVE A NEW COUSIN!

He is soooooooooo cute!!! He was born with tons of hair. lol  I want a baby so damn bad now! I cant wait to go see him again. IM not sure they figured out a name yet. They were unsure when I was at the hospital last night. 

This past weekend I was dead to the world. I had the craziest headache ever. All I could do was sleep because it hurt too bad to open my eyes. 

I dont have too much to say. Just wanted to update with the new baby news!

08:16 am - Its Almost Friday! Hang in there!!!

lol. I can never wait until the weekend. It always seems so far away. Im happy though because Shawn has been working over time every day and he gets to work both Saturday and Sunday.. PLUS!!! Monday. Which is a holiday, which is TRIPLE!!! Pay.  That makes me very happy. Over time, double time, and triple time. Must be nice making 75 bucks an hour to build cars. Im jealous. Id work there, but I like my chair job. 

So this weekend is going to be rediculously cold out. SUPER!  I really hate being cold. Lately I dont have time to dry my hair, so I just let it go curly. Which is usually a big mistake but its been ok looking. 

I watched that Juno movie. It was really cute. I also watch October Road on ABC which is a good show as well. Im hooked to it. I like that ABC online has the reacap feature so that you can watch shows you missed. I watched the extreme home makeover. That is always  amazing. It makes me cry all the time. Shawn and me watcded some of the worlds best on American Idol Last night. That was hilarious. YOU MY BROTHER FOREVER!!!!!!!

haha

Oh and I dont have MYSPACE anymore because I really dont use it. I go on and once in a blue moon I will have a comment. I use my phone and text anyway. Thats why I bought a phone with a keyboard. If you want to talk, send me a message there. I also have email for that reason too. I hated changeing my password all the time because of hackers and whatnot. Its much easier. Its stupid to have a myspace when you really dont talk to that many people.. so when your friends list is low and you only hear from 2 people here and there its pointless. Anyhow.. thats why I got rid of it. It bores me. Its not as fun as it was when it was new and people wanted to talk and NOT leave negative comments about your life on there. ANyhow.. thats all. 

ok.. ive rambled on and on
im done.. PEACE!

10:29 am - STARVIN!

You would think we wouldnt go hungry here at work. We have food all over the place, but I just cant find that one thing I want to eat. I had a banana and chocolate pudding, then some crackers. I was looking at some queso dip and chips...maybe ina few.

I have to go try on my dress for Andrea's wedding today or tomorrow. Thats exciting! Her dresses are so cute looking. Her wedding will be neat because her fiance is in the Army and they are having the men hold the swords while they walk under.  I have to get her a gift still. Maybe next week when I get paid. lol or when Shawn gets paid!

I really think I want to move. More info on a larger amount of money for the buyout struck my interest even more. Ive always thought about moving to another state. I just didnt know what I would do or really why to go. Ive always wanted to move to Nashville and sing. Then I opened my eyes and decided to stop dreaming. I know my family wont be far away so that doesnt bother me. My mom will come out every chance she gets. They will have road trips every weekend lol.  I have to see how serious shawn is. He wants a new start at life and a new start would be awesome. This prolly wont ever happen, but its totally filling our every thoughts.

Ive been tanning so I can be in color for Andreas wedding. I want to fall asleep in those beds everytime I get in. I think I burnt my elbows this time.  lol I need some lotion though. Im drying out!  The weather was great the other day and now its ice cold again. YUck Yuck Yuck 

08:13 am - Soooo

I am seriously considering moving to Arizona. The houses are very cheap and affordable. I have to find some kinda of work. Maybe Ill just start a day care service for now. Im trying to see where my company is down there. Im pretty sure there are some Lifelines in Pheonix. There has to be. People are on dialysis all over.

But really, Shawn was considering taking the buy-out if we really want to do this. I would love it!!!!!!!! MOTORCYCLES ALLLLLL  YEAR LONG!  Warm weather. I cant imagine anything better. Im sure it would be crazy different. But if its a change for the better and soooo cheap then maybe its a good thing. Who knows though. This will be a lot of thinking and time before we know what we want to do.

I just found a giant house for 100 grand. IT would prolly be a million dollar home here in michigan. 
There is so much out there!

ANyhow, my weekend went well. We went to see Walk Hard. That was pretty funny. 

Everything is working out pretty well lately. Life is going very good. Especially today. Its about to be 62!!!!!!! How awesome. Its been so cold out lately that I was going to start my car this morning and went outside all bundled up only to find it was sooooooo warm out!

ahhh.. good good good

10:20 am - Merry 2 Days after Christmas!

Im am so freaking tired! Last night Shawn took me to see the Trans Siberian Orchestra. It was pretty amazing, but it was out at tha Palace and thats soooo far away from home. The show started at like 820 and got out at 1130 ish. I didnt get home till 1am. It sucked. Then I had to get up and work bright and early.  Im struggling right now. I just want to sleep all day. 

I did pretty good this Christmas. I got a lot of things I wanted. I also have no money left and bills due! I thought I would have a little extra cash but I was a lot short this year. I shouldnt have spent so much and I should have saved better.

I owe 3000 on my truck and then I will be done with that pain in the ass payment. Of course my insurance is about to shoot through the roof due to my accident. Never good! Oh well. I wont complain, it could be worse.

Yesterday I realized how much I love American food. Angie took her bridal crew to eat (thank you again) HOWEVER! It was not the best of things for me. I do not like different foods all that much and I decided to go with something as close to regular as I could. The spaghetti and meatballs. Cant go wrong! Or so I thought. The meatballs had instant stomach ache ingrediants and killed me quickly. I barely made it home. lol VISUAL ANYONE>??? lol

It was a good time.. but yeah.. Not good for my bowls.

anyhow. just wanted to share that.

01:09 pm - Bells are ringing

This Friday my cousin David and his finace' Amy are getting married. I love weddings. Hopefully everything goes well. I love when my family is all together. It makes for a great night.  I cant wait to dance. Thats the best part. I love dancing. Plus the cake and stuff too I guess. 

I wonder whats gonna happen with the garder dance. lol SHould I try to get it or just let it go. I can only imagine if i get the bouqet and shawn misses the garder.. YIKES! hell for sure. lol Not that I care. Its whatever


Im so bored at work. We are doing nothing at all. We only had 3 patients today. THATS IT! SO things are really slow around here. I want the doc to leave so I can go take a nap. IM tired and I want to go home. I couldnt sleep that good last night. I woke up at 2am and found shawn sleeping like a baby infront of his tv downstairs.. so i got him up and brought him to bed. then after that sleep was so hard to find.


ok ok ok.. im outta here

09:14 pm - A lone at home... boring!

So... I wish we were still in highschool.. and life wasnt all about growing up. It was so easy then... Money, men, family, school, LIFE.. everything was so much easier. I miss all of my friends. Thats totally for sure. I miss the us when we all became friends.. Before everyone decided to worry about everything else and change who they were.

I dont like feeling how I feel lately. I feel kind of a lone sometimes. Even with Shawn. I know he is feeling the same way but he did that to himself. I just want to find a happy medium. Im content right now.. but i know there could be more.

SO MUCH MORE!

OF course it always helps to have extra money to play with. We are kinda poor right now. I really just want to go sing karaoke. That makes me very happy.  But there is no one to go with and that sucks. I dont really want to go out drinking either.. I just want to hang out and have a good time.


Oh well.. im just having a sad night.

thats all for now

good night  

02:45 pm - Harley Girl

Sooooooo... I  took the motorcycle classes and now I know how to ride a bike. lol That sounds silly.. But its so freaking awesome! I love it. I was on shawns harley the last few days just driving around the city getting used to things.  Its pretty sweet though. I reccommend trying it if you feel comfortable enough.

Plus it totally makes you feel 100 times cooler than you originally already were lol

*Blessing at work today...
       The phones were out and I didnt have to answer them all day!!!!! THANK YOU GOD! Some days I just want to rip the cord out of the wall. ITs non-stop.

We are celebrating my sisters bday today because she works tomorrow and we cant do it then. I dont have anything for her... ill have to pull out the ole credit card and see what I can manage to find.

ok.. well i really just wanted to tell everyone about the motorcycle thing..

lata!!!

09:30 am - Good Morning.

I am super tired for some reason today. It's only 930am and I am dragging at work already.  Its just yawn after yawn. 
Things are moving a long as they normally are. The only bad part is that when we both get home from work we are cranky as hell.. and very irritable with eachother. I try to calm him down cuz he will always get more worked up then me. Actually I think its equal.. we just react totally different to deal with it. Which is fine. Maybe we both need naps after work. That might help. 

It has been crazy hot and humid all week. Then it suppose to rain and it doesnt or it does and its insane. I need an oil change and Ill prolly do that after work.

Ive already started looking for halloween costumes. Shawn wanted to go the 300 route. Which is cool. Ceptttttt.. He needs to strap on the 6 pack in 2 months lol And its always cold out so as for us wearing almost  nothing that kinda sucks


anyhow i really have nothing to say.. just a bunch of nothing.


have a great day ....

09:03 am - I cant help it!

I am so freaking excited to get married.. its rediculous.  The rings are in layaway and Ive known since I was 10 how everything else will play out for that special day. I found a few dresses i like, but one in particular I love to death! Hopefully by the time we get engaged and all is said and done ... they will still have the dress. I HAVE TO HAVE IT! and its so cheap!

Speaking of cheap. His ring was super cheap compared to mine lol Oh well.. I know im plenty worth it. Ive been through so much I deserve this. Im just 100% happy that in the end I am still with him and I never gave up. We have been through so much and I know how I feel when Im not with him and how incomplete I feel. I know how wonderful life is going to be and I cant wait to spend the rest of it with him by my side.


yeay!

ok thats just me being excited!



lata folks!

Current Mood: ecstatic

11:50 am - Happy Monday

Lunchtime is always the best! I love food.

This weekend was pretty nice.  I ended up with a 3 day weekend because Friday our power was out at work. We had my family over Saturday and Sunday. My dad helped Shawn put up our fence. It looks so cute :) Our little home is coming together so nicely. I love it! 

Shawn and I made some dinner for my mom and dad. Then Sarah & Ron & the kids all came over. IT was a good sunday! We had a little fire and hung out for a while. I love that we can all do this. I feel so good about it all.

We are going to STL for Labor Day weekend. That will be a nice break for us. We need to get away for a while. Harley is gonna vacation with my mom at her house while we go.

Well, we have a patient coming in .. so i gotta go.

lata :)

07:53 am - FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO CARE... or dont

Well well well.... Its been a really long time since I have written anything in here.  I kinda missed this place. I think I might come back to stay for a little while.

My life right now has never been better. Im still in love more than ever. I have the cutest little home for Shawn, Harley and myself. There are no problems with anything anymore.  We have been talking so much about getting married and we are going to look for rings :) woo hoo

I got rid of myspace. lol It just got me in trouble.  Turns out its not ok for you to do the one thing you yelled at your bf for doing. lol oopsie :)

Anyhow, no big deal. I just used it to talk to the 4 people I talk to most in my life, and I just so happen to have their phone numbers..... go figure. If I need to say hello I can just call. My relationship is more important to me then some silly website.

Our manager at work is leaving. None of us want to see someone new come in and take away our freedom so we are trying to see if any of us are able to take over the position. Its pretty freakin easy. 
I love this job to death. Ill prolly stay here forever just because it keeps getting better. Why leave?!

Alrighty, well Thats about all i have because im about to pass out.

Current Mood: sleepy

01:49 pm - ANGIE ****SCUBA ****

if u happen to find some hot russian who lets u use his computer and u are able to read this ... can i borrow ur scuba gear at some point.. lemme know..

love ya


t.

10:00 am - FUCK!

ALL I wanted to do was see WICKED! I have been waiting so patiently.. and there are like NOOOOO seats available for 2. The only ones are so far back. DAMMIT!

Well that sucks. Ill see if Shawn will take me to see it in Chicago.. but I doubt it. FUCK ME!!!!



ANyhow.. Life is great. Me and Shawn are wonderful. Getting ready to play softball.. and get our boat. This is gonna be a great summer. I cant wait.